“Better to write for yourself and have no public,
than to write for the public and have no self.” ―
Cyril Connolly, British Author 1903-1984
Way back early in my blogging journey, I discovered this quote from Cyril Connolly. It really rang a bell for me and I have it printed out and it resides on the inside of my journal as a constant reminder.
In January 2012 I wrote about writing. At that time I was writing mostly for myself having few followers. But I felt it was something I had to do and I was learning both from writing and from reading the posts of other writers whose blogs I followed.
Writing has become easier in the months and years since then. But like all writers, whether well known or like me just writing for the pleasure of writing, we know what it is like to step up to the page aka computer screen to be faced with a blank sheet. No thoughts on anything. Blank screen and a blank mind. But then something comes and the void is filled.
As writers we are vulnerable. We write about what matters to us and expose ourselves and unveil our deepest feelings. Our words reveal much about us and our truths. And sometimes, because of this, writing feels dangerous. But this is what keeps us (well me at any rate) coming back to the screen/notebook/page. The need to share my feelings on the page with others (hopefully) or just with myself when necessary. It is scary and often I am looking for excuses – the dishes must be done, the washing hung out etc, but I keep coming back to the page.
At times we feel the need to judge, to edit our writing. We strive for perfectionism but we know, unless we are one of the great writers, that perfectionism is out of reach. Lord Marks of Marks & Spencer fame said “The price of perfection is too great. Close enough is good enough.” We acknowledge that if we are writing for publication, we need an editor and a few Beta readers who will, hopefully, pick up grammatical errors, typos and make suggestions to improve the story. But for those of us writing our blogs and sharing our thoughts and feelings with our friends, writing the post is more important than it being judged perfect.
So it’s back to the keyboard for me.
And as C S Lewis says “You can make anything by writing.”