I awoke this morning to a lovely spring day; sun shining; birds singing and this view from the bedroom
I then picked up my iPad and wrote this as a stream of consciousness. No editing. Just saying –
In three weeks
I shall leave this place
So full of happy memories
of love shared
of laughter and friendship.
But now the house sits empty
of those shared things.
What is a house without sharing
It is but an empty shell.
And so now, once again
the wheels of my life have turned
and again, I face the future alone.
Alone, but now even stronger
Strengthened with the memories
of this late love we shared
for such a very short time.
But length of time is irrelevant
You will live in my heart forever my love.
And then I got up and saw this
and just knew how I was going to spend this beautiful Saturday. Isn’t it amazing how much one gathers in a very short time?
And now another quote from Edna St. VincentMillay
“Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide”.
But enough of melancholy and feeling sorry for myself. I can still enjoy this lovely day, the warmth of friendship and the knowledge that I have so much more in my life than many others.
And now because I’m English and I drink tea
I shall make a pot and think about where I am, where I’ve been and where I’m going.
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I love this! so in the moment, and yet so conscious of the passage of time. 🙂 I feel for your loss (whatever that may be) but I wish you well on your continuing journey. – a fellow Wellingtonian. 🙂
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Thanks for the comment and it’s always good to hear from a fellow Wellingtonian. Gotta stick together.
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Life is a journey that has many twists and turns and ups and downs. With all its uncertainties, it is a glorious journey when we remember what was and look forward to what is yet to be. Tea is a good way to begin any day.
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Yes Patricia, it is an interesting journey and tea is good at any time of the day.
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My English husband considers tea the answer to everything. You poem is perfect, so from the heart. Whatever the future holds, may it bring a smile to your face and joy in your heart once more. Sending hugs (because I can´t send tea) ❤ ❤
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I’m with your husband. Tea is the panacea for all ils (almost). Thanks for the comment.
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It’s tough letting go of people, pets, places, and things.
Their absence creates space . . . which time re-fills.
As new doors and windows open, letting in the light.
Peace.
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Yes I agree. When new doors open the light comes flooding in. I am looking forward to that. Thanks Nancy
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I was going to opt for the tea, too. Blessings to you as you take one more step, moving forward. Hugs!
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Thanks Patti. It’s amazing what a cup of tea can do. As I said to Darlene, it’s a panacea for almost all ills and my go to drink in times of stress.
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It is hard seeing one’s life put in boxes. Yet, when you open them again in your new place, you will be able to rekindle in small ways the life that you had.
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Hello Elizabeth and thanks for the comment. Yes I have moved many times in this peripatetic life and do know that our possessions look quite different in a new setting even though the memories remain.
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I hope you will find another happy place, Judith.
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Thank you Jo both for the comment and for caring. I’m working through this dark place and know from experience that I shall come out the other side eventually.
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A cup of tea in the sunshine will always be comforting and I see time has moved on since this post and you must be in the thick of moving. I hope for a calm and orderly move. It will be exhausting and then it will be done. A new beginning. May the sun shine gentle upon you.
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Thank you my friend. Yes moving day draws closer but I am becoming used to the idea of a new beginning. I have done it before and so can do it again. But don’t ever let anybody tell you it’s easy. Today, we have spring rain falling gently to mix with my tears.
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Yes, leaky eye syndrome…it’s good to turn your memories over in your mind, then set them aside and do what you need to do. Best of luck and fair skies for your move.
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Strong words! May your pain ease… and you enjoy the memories and many beautiful Saturdays. Imagine… sipping tea on the beach! 😉
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Thank you for stopping by and reading and then commenting. Tea on the beach. – great idea
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