A Hard Decision

Lotte at back door2

Lotte Baxter
Loving friend; Faithful companion

My darling, beautiful little girl was gently put to sleep late last night.  Her big, brave heart could no longer keep her alive; it was almost stopped.  And so I made the very hard decision to let her go.

I held her as the vet injected her, told her how much I loved her and those beautiful eyes looked at me one last time then she quietly slipped away.

Now through my tears, I console myself with the fact that though she had only a short life, she had a happy one.

So now my love using the same words I used on  my late husband’s memorial cards – “Soar High; Fly free; Breathe easy”

Lotte in bed

So goodbye and thank you for sharing your life with me.
You will be greatly missed my special friend.


65 responses to “A Hard Decision

  1. Oh, I am so sorry Judith. I am crying all the way across the world with you. I know how you feel. I know how you feel. I know how you feel.

  2. Oh Judith—I am so very sorry for your loss. They become such an important part of our lives and I know that she had a wonderful life with you. She told you in many ways, I am sure, how important you were to her and how wonderful that you were with her at the end. Not an easy decision to make but one I am sure was right. Lifting you up and thinking of you today as you grieve the loss.

  3. Oh, Judith. No. I’m in denial as I feel I just met Andy’s companion from just a year ago. I am so sorry.

  4. I’m so sorry. It is a difficult decision indeed. We had to do the same thing a few years ago.

  5. Oh. I’m so sorry. I know words are not really enough but I’m sending you a hug with them. hang in there. 🙂

  6. So sorry to hear of the sad loss of your beloved pet. I send my love and comforting thoughts.

  7. I know how much Lotte meant to you Judith and how devoted the pair of you were. I am so sorry to read your post. Grief comes from love and responsibility for our beloved pets. Take great care of yourself at this sad time.

  8. I’m so sorry to hear this, Judith, sharing your tears today. She was blessed with a wonderful caregiver. Hugs.

  9. Oh Judith, that is so sad. My daughter often tells people this is the last kind thing you can do for you pet. It is so tough to say that last goodbye. Kudos to you for being with her till the end.

  10. So, so sorry to hear this news. We’ve been in a similar situation twice before where we have had to make the decision that its time. Lotte is at peace now, that’s the important thing. Joy

  11. Poor Judith – that is really one of the most painful decisions to have to make, and you must be feeling very lonely. You have all my sympathy, too.

  12. I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved Lottie. Here’s a hug.

  13. I’m so sorry for your loss. But I am glad you had such a wonderful, beautiful friend.

  14. Judith, I’m so, so sorry to hear this news. I know that Lottie has crossed over the rainbow bridge and will always have the warmth of your love.

    • Thanks Jackie. I hadn’t heard of the Rainbow Bridge before but now I have found it I think it’s just right. Thanks for caring and sharing. 🙂

  15. I am so very sorry to hear this sad news Judith. Lottie was such a good companion. I share your grief as do so many others.

  16. I know that is a very hard thing to go through. You have my sincere sympathies

  17. Dear Judith, how said I was to hear of poor Lotte and how you must be feeling. She had a wonderful friend in you and while your sadness will last a seemingly long time the warm spot in your heart that is Lotte will always be.

  18. I’m so sorry for your loss. I, too, have been right where you are. I, too sat and held my lovely one in my arms and watched her leave. I cried like a baby with no holds barred. It was more devastating than I could have imagined and I was so thankful to have my son with me to help me get through it all. My thoughts are with you in this raw time of grief.

  19. When humans reach that point, we can say, “It’s okay, we can handle this, you can move on if you need to…” and sometimes that helps them to pass gently away.
    Dogs see it as their lifelong responsibility to be there for us, no matter what discomfort or pain they are enduring. We – as loving masters – unfortunately have to make that decision for them. It is never easy. My heart goes out to you in this sad time.

  20. Oh Judith, I’m so sorry for your loss.

  21. It’s so hard to let go of them, but even harder to watch them suffering. I’ve put down several cats, the most recent three years ago and it never gets easier. Each one is special. Thanks for letting us sit with you for a few minutes and share the sorrow.


  22. She was a beauty! Hugs to you, Judith 🙂

  23. I’m so sad for you, Judith. We all got to know sweet Lotte through your posts, and I can’t believe she’s gone. My heart aches for you.

  24. I am so sorry to read this (I’m trying so hard not to cry.) It’s so hard to let our furry companions go, but I think you did the right thing. My thoughts are with you.

  25. So sorry, Judith. It is such a hard thing to do…to say good-bye to loving furries. I have had to do this twice so I know it is heartbreaking. Yet, it is the most loving gift you could give her; to release her from suffering. Even though I have never met you and Lottie I feel like I know you and feel so sad and share your sorrow.

    • I didn’t think I would ever get that close to a four legged friend. But I did and now I miss her like crazy. But I know that the right decision was made. 🙂

  26. Aww, Judith. That’s so sad. Bye, Lottie.

  27. Everything will be alright in the end, and if its not alright, trust me, its not the end. 🙂

  28. I’m so sorry Judith. Its the hardest thing and the most loving thing you can ever do. I feel for you, just reading your post brings back so many memories. We have dogs in our lives to remind us what love is and in their short lives they give us so much. Sending you hugs and strength xx

  29. Oh Judith so sad for you our pets are so special to us and give us many many hours of unconditional love . Love you loads Marianne XXX
    Crying now XX

    • Hello small sister. Thanks for this. You will remember how it was when your dog died. Don’t cry – the decision was the right one although it was so very hard. Love you too. 🙂

  30. Sara had to make the same decision twice last year te old dog was on the day before Christmas Eve. Everyone was in tears men and boys as well. But it was the kindest thing in both cases. XX

  31. WordsFallFromMyEyes

    That is an enormously difficult decision. I would have been very emotional. He’ll rest in peace.

    • Oh I was very emotional. Thankfully I called a friend who came and held me after the deed was done. How I miss that lovely little girl. And now I have a new companion in my life a little French Poodle. Quite different and she fill a space in my life but Lotte will never be forgotten.

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